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He stood there not saying anything, mom was fuming and the brunette lady just had a “what’s going on” look on her face. I was feeling… Well I don’t how I’m supposed to feel. I mean I just heard my dad calling another woman “honey” and the very same woman told me that he was her fiancé. How does one process all this in a matter of seconds? I need a whole day to go through this revelation. Suddenly I was in the dark. Mom:” So you’re just going to stand there?” She said looking at dad. Her eyes were filled with so much anger and hatred, she looked like she was about to kill someone. Dad:” Can we not do this?” Mom:” Shame on you Mike, shame on you.” She turned to look at me. Mom:” Honey, I’m sorry but you were right we need to get going.” Me:” What’s going on?” I don’t know why I asked that but I had to say something. Anyone can see that mom and dad might be parting ways and that dad found himself young blood. He was rather quick if you asked me. Brunette:” Yes, I’d also like to know what’s going on?” Dad:” We’ll talk about it when we get home.” Mom:” I’ll get my lawyer to finalize the divorce papers, I want nothing to do with you. Oh! I’ve cried, and cried, and even landed my daughter in hospital because of you but you have no power over me anymore Mike. I loved you, heck I still love you but that love will fade. I’ve been patient with you, all those women you brought to my bed. I forgave you over and over again but this time I couldn’t, I mean (Teary) you went as far as impregnating your little bitch. I’m done, you know I know my worth now and I’m glad that your daughter now knows who you really are. Time to get off that high pedestal!”

After she said all that with tears flowing down her cheeks, she walked away. I was torn apart from what I heard, the amount of hurt my mom has been going through because of this man I’ve been worshiping all life is hard to comprehend. How did I miss the signs? Never, not even once did mom and dad have a fall out in front me. They always presented a united front, they were always so in love. How did I miss it? Dad:” Look Zara this doesn’t change anything, I’m still the same man…” Me:” (Chuckled) hehehe uyadlala yaz, you’ve got to be kidding me. Not even a, I'm sorry you found out like this about me and your mom? Or I’m sorry I never got back to you after you called? Like do you even care? All along I thought you were on some business trip but the joke is on me for believing that you were a better man, the kind of man I’d want to get married to one day. You sure fooled me dad. And oh… Congratulations on your baby, I hope you don’t fool him/her like you fooled me.” He tried to hug me but I pushed him away and stormed off. Brunette lady:” Wow!!! They sure do hate you now… So much for keeping things on the down-low. Don’t worry they’ll get over it.” Dad:” That’s my family Lateysha, why did you have to wonder off? Look what you’ve done.” Tey:” Me? This is a mall, I didn’t think I was going to bump into your family now did I?” Dad:” Whatever, let’s go home.” * * * I caught up with mom in the parking lot, she was in the car crying her heart out. It broke me to see her in that state. She’s truly a strong woman, all these years fighting for something that was long broken. I am not even half the woman that she is. I got into the car and pulled her in for a hug. I let her cry on my shoulder in silence.

Sands: Me:” Are you sure about this?” Her:” I am not but it’s what you want right?” Me:” It will not be as special if you don’t want it.” Her:” Then I don’t know Sandile.” She sat on the bed. Lindo came over to my house at around 16h00 telling me that she wants to strengthen our relationship. I asked her what she meant by that and she plainly walked up to and said that she wants to have sex with me. That came out of the blue considering how much effort I’ve been putting in to get her to say yes and now, all of a sudden she’s willing to give it up just like that? It doesn’t make sense. Me:” Come on babe, talk to me? This is not even about sex is it?” Her:” No, it’s not.” She looked down. Me:” Then what’s bothering you?” Her:” (Sigh) it’s just that you don’t treat me good and you always put Zee first before everything and…” Me:” So you’re telling me that the only reason you want to have sex with me it is because of Zee?” I brought my eyebrows together. Her:” No, not really but if she gives you something that I can’t give you then there is no guarantee that you’ll stay with me.” She got teary. I really want to shout at her right now for being insecure and stuff but I am not about to do that. I mean, look at her… She’s all miserable and down because of what I put her through on a daily. I guess Zee will always be that one girl that will stir up troubles in my relationship with Lindo. I think I’m starting to fall for her, Lindo that is. Wait… Did I just say that out loud? I can’t be falling for her… Me:” Lindo wami why would you think that Zee is giving me something?” Her:” Uhm… well, you see uKea thinks there’s something there…” Me:” Kea? Really? I mean, you’ve been friends for like what? 3 seconds and already she’s making you doubt our relationship?” Her:” No, she’s only looking out for me.” Girls are something else, I can’t believe she allowed a third party to influence how she feels. I had hoped that I was dating a clear headed girl but clearly I am not. I hope this is not one of many… Me:” I’m astound!” Her:” Please be honest with me Sandile…” Me:” By all means.” Her:” Have you any feelings for Zee?” Me:” Tell me you’re joking?” Nope, I’m not having it. She crossing the line now. Her:” It’s just an honest question.” Me:” You know what? I’m taking you home, take your shit and let’s go.” I stormed out of the room. I don’t know what her deal is. It looks like I need to talk to this Kea, she’s going to be trouble.